Wednesday, May 31, 2006
cant fight this feeling anymore
reached home, checked my phone and soo many miss calls by i dont know who. one of them was jasmine koh jia min hah. i missed so many thousands of her calls. and then some messages by M and the rest. thanks F even though i just read the message last night, i did remember and miss you and the rest! talked t J and C last night haha. i miss the kkps♥ v much, i bought gummies f you all. oh i miss someone in particular v v much. it really got me thinking how stupid i could have been. its been over f almost like half a year, but i cant give it up. its so hard. okay i really need t talk t C tmrw during tuition or hopefully i can go meet her in the afternoon. but i had fun, one of the best holiday so far. oh and i heard quite a few things and omg im pretty shocked. but smthg disgusted J and i a bit. anw hongkongs a must go, cos you cant miss their shopping paradise :D
3:32 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006
i got the right temperature
8:24 AM
i'll never forget this. i cried like crazy cos it was hot and sweaty and scary and i felt so shite weak aft that, but it was good. 
8:22 AM
the v own i-Gallop haw haw
8:20 AM
i finally got the camp pictures and so many stupid unglam shots haha. camp was like gng 2 months alr, but it seems so yesterday! :)
8:19 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
last day of schl, yaye? how fast the term ended. its alry the middle of the year which i totally dont feel like it is the last day. hannie was suppose t come over t collect her friend's ezlink which she didn't so anyways music marathon today was really bad. but more jamming sessions drng the hols, hopefully we can perform well its really scary t be on stage infront of like how many people. stayed back in class w some pple. D, A and I were like dancing away haha. then E and i started dng our chi dance which was like so damn pri1 days. then she told D t carry her legs, but too heavy so M helped, but still couldnt haw haw. then A did some dance steps then M was like its like some horse thing (dng the stupid horse sound and action) wahlao fucking hilarious. i was sitting on the chair laughing my butt off. anw im gng away on sat mrng, and im gng t miss kkps. its means no contact w them f 5 days, that means no conference till wee hours of the night. nevermind its gng t pass really fast. but im quite excited f the trip. business class, a room w my cousin, and shooopppiiinnnngggggggggggg :)
10:42 PM
Sunday, May 21, 2006
sinking into sweet uncertainty
i) write 5 different messages of love to different people and do not state their names until the end of your message and write their names from back to front in brackets. Eg, rachel should be written as (lehcar) or you can choose not to write their names at all
ii) let the 5 lucky people know how much you love them through this messages
1. you've been my bestest bestest best friend since we were like p5. omg i wonder what would things be like now if we didn't keep in contact. i always felt really easy talking t you abt everything and everytime i felt really down and really needed t talk t someone. you'll always be the first i would call, cos even if i have t cry over the phone i would cos i never felt awkward having t cry over the phone when i told you stuffs. and you've never failed t cheer me up in tuition when i felt in the dumps. the lovely one hour conversations in my room during tuition haha, but they were so damn good. i miss our every tuesdays, where steph, chua, nick, you and me would always be at serene either studying (which is so damn seldom) or just talking and talking. thank you for all the wonderful midnight calls and everything. all the talks when i felt really lost, those words really meant so much t me. still remember when we were p5, we had t sit tgt for almost 2 terms and i remember us always squabbling at the slightest thing and when neither of us wanted t apologise first. then in p6, we drifted so much but dont know why at the end of the year, steph you and i became reallly close. and in sec1 we always hanged out w each other. but in sec2 steph drifted away from us, but we still kinda kept in contact. and till now, :) haha and every thursday would be one of my favourite day cos we could always catch up drng tuitions. and this friendship is one of them which i treasure the most, and will always be. thx f the countless numbers of phonecalls (i even remembered i had geog paper the next day i couldnt sleep, and i called you haha!) and everything. i know this is gng t be so cliche but anyway, remember that be it 1am in the mrng when theres schl next day or anything i would be there f you, even if drng tuition or what. there'll always be someone there when you need a hug, alright? i love you v v much my bestest wonderful wonderwall enelec oohc iep iy :)
2. its only been a year that i've known you but it felt like i've known you since i was sec1. it was amazing how much we talked last year and still counting. i missed having you next t my class where every mrng i would just go into your class t find you and your freaking classmates would get so annoyed haw haw. i was so glad t have you in the same schl as me, same church as me. it was really easy t trust you w stuffs and even things abt __. haha and i was really surprise when you told me who you liked the other time. haha from then we started sharing everything and all. those days were so fun when we would always talked on the phone abt the same stuffs. and i would rant t you how sweet C was. though it was really wrong but there was this thing inside me when i didnt tell you, i felt that i really needed t tell you that. that was when i started telling you many many things. and i would always be teasing you abt so many people haha. wow i really miss those days when you were just next door. and i want t thank you f the long smses you sent t me when i felt so shite abt youknowwho. the countless phonecalls and those messages when you would cheer me up. you're the sweetest friend ever. the hugs when i was being such a crybaby that day but your hug really cheered me up and that short talk outside your classroom. hey you're reallly great, f everything you've done f me. i promise that i would be there f you even if it was something reallly saddening or happy. just remember that im here and that i care alright. thx f being such a wonderful almost besty. you rock uj! love.
3. rooftops star gazing, tanning in sentosas, chair lifts, sleep overs, midnight calls, 10 mash potatoes, gng crazy in town, long buses and mrt rides. omg i miss them so much. the stupid chairlift where i dropped my damn camera and my heart almost dropped haha. heart t heart talks, so damn fruitful and they meant a lot t me. calling and crying t you over the phone at midnight cos of ___. our v long bus rides t changi and all. the tsunami in pasir ris. hey i miss all of them so much. these memories will always be kept dear t me. i love you emim so damn much. it might be a really short message but its enough t tell you how much i miss you and how much you mean t me.
4. friendships always lasted we thought but haha there was a slight thing which caused the 3 of us t be unhappy and all. but im glad things are better now. and i miss you v much. the stay over last year was really good even though we missed our gng t ikea in pjs. thats how crazy we were. spending your 13th birthday w you and eme. our sentosa trips, little talks, trainings, kallang ice skating rink, omg so many things! i miss dng a lot of things w you. and we really need t go out soon before you fly t the other side of the world. i love you gnhc, my ultimate queef.
5. last but not least, the current group of people i most hang out w, the kkps :) you guys are awesome. though our heart t heart talks, some little small things here and there we stand strong. i know things now aint so stable, but i want you all t know that no matter what has happened, its the past okay (no digging up the past) and that even though i know D you feel out, but in our hearts, you're still in kkps k. and that we have accepted you f who you are or rather I have okay. so please please dont think that we are against you and all k. like i said, you're still my best shopping/fashion stylist, cos youre the only one who saw all my fats (so fat!!) and i cannot find anyone who will shop like craZeEe w me and gng t the atm like free money. *sMiLeZxzxz* anyway im so glad t have each and everyone of you cos you all are supporting my diet yaye! haha okay besides that. and that all of you are just so different from my past group of friends. thx f cheering me up when im down and all. the retarded jokes, talks and everything crazy hahaha. the outings, dinners, lunches, recesses, gathering all were really wonderful. without you people, i dont think everything would be so fun. the imitating of stuffs haw haw. jamming sessions where E and i would always go crazy! haha. the heart t heart talks outside classroom. and even though we curse each other of stupid cancer, dont worry wont die that fast haha. the conferences where F gets so damn zibi haha. thx f the past few months of wonderful memories. i hope we would still be this close f the next 2 years. M, E, J & F, be honoured you all are gng t read m story haha and no one knows anything abt all this k. haha thats f supporting my diet. lol. yaye f the kkps, the crazy retarded but awesome people<3<3
12:55 PM
angel to you, devil to me
12:56 AM
I Love TUTU
I MISS TUTU
I LOVE TUTU
Haha. This girl is very obsessed with tutu all of a sudden. When we first ask her to try then she was like eeyer, not nice one. Haha. We are going to have a tutu trip at Rivervale mall one day man. :D She is on the phone with manda and me now and she is very happy because it is us! Haha, joking.
ILOVEKIMSAI! <3
12:53 AM
Monday, May 15, 2006
and how, how did i let her go away
cos love, love is so easy to feel
but the hardest thing to say
so the previous days have been really i dont know. so brand new week, no more all this stuffs(i hope) haw haw. i fell asleep agn during last nights conference. E and M came over yesterday haha. read and saw smthg damn damn hilarious omg! even thinking abt it now makes me laugh. but M didnt laugh cos she said she was hungry and E and i were just v high lol. i dont feel like blogging anymore. i felt like half the time i was sleeping in schl. assembly i fell asleep, english my brains were half asleep, lit i slept for one and a half period, only chem i didnt sleep. well i couldnt we did the stupid pracs agn. im really v sleeepy, and i need my shit pill have not shitted for a v long time. okay im gng t spend my night watching tv, conference agn (im really gng t sleep this time haha) and sleep sleep sleep yaye. no more tests t worry. oh yes, E dont need t chop off her head alr, dont need t call J ali baba and no more swensens f the class, and i dont need t buy 50cents ice cream f the class alr! E even happier, her head at stake. but i wld rather want my 1 more mark now =( the bet aint that important. J the best, i tell you. move along is stuck in my head agn and so is mixtape! i think i must have sang that t sleep cos fangs was playing it over and over agn. lol hilarious people. and am i that a pig that keeps sleeping? haha. yaye im gng t get skittles on wednesday have not eaten them f gazillion years thanks precious!
hi ju hunnnybunnnnnny my almost besty babyyyyyy<3<3, i miss your phonecalls but its okay i still love you v v much.
5:50 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
look away and pretend that i dont love you
(totally nthg t do w the You or whatever haha)
last night was just wow haha. now looking back at it, i wished that the conversation would have ended longer and maybe tmrw wouldnt be so awkward. (fangsy & mandy think that my short form v irritating and i cant use it =( v sad.) okay so im gng back t the subject smthg like the previous post agn haw haw.
so i think You still refuse t change and fuck it seems like we are the ones who are being irritating and annoying. okay go ahead and think that way cos i really really gave up on talking t You so nicely and all. i really dont understand why are you giving up all Our friendships so easily when time and time and agn we are trying t salvage and there you are letting it go. do You know how disappointed we are feeling, how sad we are feeling. and there is E, who is feeling all so awkward, have you spared a thought f her? seriously she will have t face you tmrw sitting next t you, imagine how is she gng t feel. all You think is your bloody gf. prove Me wrong if you deny it. im sick and tired of it alr. seeing how my friends are suffering, feeling all so shite and there You are saying that We are ditching you? that was the last straw. you know when i read that you say that we are ditching you not you ditching Us. i just felt like telling you that its your GIRLFRIEND that you are ditching US for. if you think im wrong, then tell me in what way are we ditching you? and yes thak you for telling me that you dont need my sympathy and everything. i felt so damn bloody shite when you said that. so much f the superficial name, Friends? do You even realise that we dont want things t go worst? but unfortunately you dont. you dont want t talk t Us then forget everything abt clearing up things. Good Riddance, enough of all this so called "friends".
i can tell you that i do want things back up. infact ive got so much t tell you, so much things t share w you. but theres so much of all this nonsense that i wanna put it right down this moment. im saying it right now, i give up. not until.. i dont know.
9:05 PM
Friday, May 12, 2006
i hope things arent breaking up. i, we hate t see things turn out like this.
maybe You do, but We dont.
is it so difficult t accept comments from other people. not everyone will see each other as someone so perfect, let yourself alone. so why cant you just accept the fact that we said smthng about you and your gf? must you actually go spread it here and there? it was meant t keep t all ourselves yet you go tell your gf. but its true, if you are back w your girlfriend then so be it, but if youre not you dont have t get all so touchy and tell us that you aint back w her. and you just cant keep anything between us and you. you just have t tell your gf. is it so hard t keep smthg t yourself. must you tell every single thing t her? yes you need t be honest in a rs, but not everything that is gng on between Us. somethings you have t learn t keep it to yourself. now youre mad at us f commenting on you tgt w your oh so darling gf. dont blame it on us, cos its the truth. we are all invisible t you when your gfs arnd. are we just this t you? okay go tell the whole world. seriously youve got a problem too yknw. for no rhyme or reason youre just showing that youre not happy and what nots. seriously youve changed so much ever since we just said smthg abt you. wasnt that suppose t be a talk where we throw out everything? so you mean we arent suppose t say all this abt you? you can slam the phone down the phone on your friends, you can show me that youre not happy. but just bear in mind, we have been your friends there f you all along and now youre ditching us just f your bloody gf. you may have your friends, but they might not be there f you like how we all have been. im not trying t say that we are always there and all, but im saying that all this while we all have been there f you, even when you cry, they cried w you. and we are in the same class and gng t be f the next 3 years and youre just letting everything down f your gf. if you werent happy abt what we said then thats too bad cos if we didnt say those words we arent what you called, friends. we said it cos we want you t change, cos we care f you as a friend and yet we are treated back like this and infact youre changing even f the worst of the worst. maybe you shld just think it through, if we are just that bit t you. if you still think that we shldnt have said and all that crap, then thanks ive said my piece alr.
i know im gng t be expecting cold shoulders if you read this (and right now im contemplating whether t tell you abt this). well you might hate me but i think i really that its time f me t say it out since you dont want us t say anything. oh btw im NOT saying this on the behalf of any of them. just me, expressing how i feel. and youre my friend, v good friend and thats why i want the best f you. i dont want t see you ending up all so hurt. okay nevermind. i dont want t end up wasting my time.
4:36 PM
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
i decided t password my blog agn cos i really have t say things which i dont want t offend any readers, so it would be better just t be passwordize.
anw i dont really care if im called 2 face, 2 sided or whatever. think abt it, can you say that You are definetely not two face at all? and if You can say that you are not 2 sided at all then good f you cos in my point of view almost everyone has their 2 sidedness. and if you think that just cos i called You asking if you want mos tix means im two face, all i can say is that your thinking is v shallow. im only trying t sell tix and im being two face? whatever it is, Your comments didnt really affect me cos i think you think too much. and anw, it takes two hands t clap so im no way trying t suck up t you or whatever. im v happy w things now =)
she nvr come agn today, v happy. aft schl went f jamming cos theres music marathon auds tmrw. and hu min wants t give gong han tmrw so that means ive t study my thing agn tonight. i hope i can catch my seoul far seoul good haw haw. oh i rushed through the chi compo today, fucking hilarious. the title was wo (myself), so i really wrote nthg but crap expect f the first and second para. i wrote like my studies is v bad and if one day i do get a1 f every sub i would jump dwn f everyone, also say that i am v fair fairer than bai gong zhu (go ahead laugh all you want haha), and i said that i walk v slow like a snail. i just felt like writing crap okay cos i lost the paper she gave and secondly i was too lazy t think. im prepared f a fail, v bad one. oh yes if i do pass my maths test i wld be treating whole class t 50cents ice cream, sorry facing crisis now v broke :D haha so do not ask f more. just await t call jasmine ali baba and t play football w eliza v nice head haha.
7:01 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
today was a really good day damn my heart never felt so light f so long :)
okay we (kkpops) had this heart t heart talk drng our 2 free periods today. so we were just practically shooting and all. not a very happy or sad thing but its a v heart lightening thing, for me at least. but somehow i feel that the bond is stronger cos we all accepted all comments so yaye. things are gng t be good f long! okay got maths tuition later w cel and kheng haha. ciao!
5:45 PM
Sunday, May 07, 2006
bloody Bitch. if you dont understand the meaning of treasure, is your bloody business you dont need t throw mine away. fuck you Bitch, i swear youre gng t get karma just you see. if you dont have smthg that youve treasure for dont know how many fucking years is your problem, just leave mine alone cant you? cos ive treasured mine for since i was born and i dont give a fuck if i die from nose cancer cos it wouldnt replace anything. Bitch >:(
tickets f vaunt @mos are sold out so those who hadnt gotten theirs, next time. but good news is that ive got some tickets w me, so if you do need any call/msg me @98380318 or you may email/im me at xenodice@hotmail.com
(no smiley face, v pissed by that Bitch)
9:37 PM
KIM LOVES CHERLENE :D
CHERLENE LOVES KIM TOO!
I miss you twinnie<3
7:20 PM
