Okay its going to quite a emo entry, i think. I'll try to be emo, its been very long since i want to be sad and cry my bloody gay eyeballs out for stupid reasons.
I suddenly thought a lot this evening. No, i had a wonderful sleep this afternoon consisting a very weird dream which i should tell my cousins tmrw and i woke up feeling really sickish. So i sat on the sofa as usual mtving and i was just flickering the channels and Envy was on hbo while waiting for my parents to come home. Then i felt this (insert feeling here) on my chest, okay it doesnt hurt but its this (insert feeling here again). This is going to sound stupid, but i suddenly thought of death. (Okay shut up, any comments just say on haloscan. Let me say my peace.) I thought i was having breast cancer. Omf, no no no i was kidding. I was just thinking and it will not happen. Will not. Ever since maple told me about the breast cancer thing, i've been so concious. I want to go for a full check up then if i really do(touch wood), please come visit me in the hospital. I got one million and one things i want to do before i die (i'm kidding).
Schl's starting in like tmrw -.- and i have not done anything productive during this 4 lovely weeks :) i only remember having 1 chinese tuition and then the rest, i chased the china woman out. Okay actually not chase, i just said i didnt want to have tuition and my mum told me to cancel 'em, so cool. And then maths tuitions were like bitching sessions with bestest. Okay i cannot play anymore, i came across this blog saying about 4 months to eoys. Wahlao, i've got a whole lot to study. The best thing is, i have not done a fucking piece of homework yaye. No i did my maths alry just that i cant find my maths1 to do inside. And the rest i cannot find them, cannot be bothered to find them. At most just die on the first day of schl, get punish. Anyway i alr have to go spend xxx amount of money on the first day, which are schl badge, name tag, pen, schl shoes, full scap, file everything. I hate schl, why cant it reopen on the 27th instead. Why cant they give me one day grace to sleep and do everything, what if i oversleep until 12pm tmrw. Aiyah who cares, just go to schl with a pencil case and wallet to eat. I'm quite scared to go schl, omg. Things might have changed, my hair changed i dont know how to tie my hair anymore cuz i have not tied in for 4 weeks. I am :( cuz i have to start studying for tests, have to wake up so damn early, no more shopping everyday, no more mtving until 2am wahlao it sucks and i am :) cuz i'm finally seeing the people i'm missing so damn much. So its 1/4 of me wanting to go back to schl and 3/4 of me dont want to go back. Ughhhhhhhh..
I'm very happy, i just realise. So no emo post haha. I've been quite happy for the last don't know how many days. Maybe a stupid em0 sentence on the first paragraph saying i might be dying. Anyway i need to tann cuz i got a damn ugly tann on my back now (stupid sb), thats the most important thing i havent done. And mm is coming back in dont know how many days time, and i dont know my lyrics well enough. My lovely friends, do come support my group okay :D music marathon @millenia walk, i dont know the date, the time and all. I need to sleep, cuz i need to get up in 3hours time to go airport.
Behind that letter it says i miss you, i love you and i want you back.