i don't really bother about salvaging our friendship now cuz i'm not the one thats not wanting to accept but i somehow or rather think its you and by the way, i've tried some means to do so if you didn't take notice. and that's when i realise what other people say are quite true. if only i chose to listen to them but well i just take it as a lesson learnt. so i'm going to put it down as the past, and i'll only look whats in for me in the future. and i'm thankful for the wonderful friendships we had, and in fact i would always remember what you said to me last night cuz it hurt so much that it feels like its a scar that will never heal in long term. but well since you told everyone or rather made it seem likes its my fault, so well sorry if i wasn't good a friend enough for you. no worries, i'm not going to beg for you stay cuz i'm going to choose to walk away instead of just suffering in your silence.
oh and i don't really understand why people have to tell the whole world about everything? to tell the whole world that you're so innocent and that its because of her, her and her? and well the class is not scary and quiet. its just probably cuz of stuffs. i'm not trying to like push the blame like what other people do but i'm just saying that if you don't need to tell the every single soul, making it seem like the whole thing is my fucking fault? you wouldn't admit, gee. (why can't people just shut their gap instead of spreading it. for sympathy? or just for announcing to everyone about how mean or what you say, hurting people are?)
enough is enough really. i don't want to fucking hear anything about friends anymore. you made my impression of friends change so much. thank you really, thank you all so fucking much. friends who hide behind those true self, fair-weather friends, so many of them. if you know what is hurt like, stop doing it back unless you're doing a tit for tat kind of shit. since you know whats the feeling like, well maybe i'm feeling more fucked up than that. seriously, stop it cuz no I'm Not Okay.